MY PAIN

No, don’t ask me to look at you the way I was if you don’t want me

I’m already in so much pain than you think I have

You won’t understand cause you didn’t and don’t even ever think I can hurt that much

Don’t ask me to come after you cause you yourself cannot say a word

Sorry? Or even goodbye?

I never think you are more than a coward to just leave me behind in silence!

And run towards your rebound just to seek joy and feed your lust

I forgive you but I cannot forget

I forgive you but that doesn’t mean I can forget easily

I forgive you but that doesn’t mean I can heal in a blink of an eye

Everytime I heal a bit, you come

And you might think I am alright, so then you play around again with your new toy

Maybe you just think that I’m heartless

But you never know I have so much pain and burden these days

Don’t tell me your story if that isn’t your sincerity

Don’t tell me your dreams if you won’t include me on it

Don’t ask me to have faith in you if you even can’t keep your heart only for me!

Don’t ask me to read your unsincere and ambiguous words if you don’t love me!

You said about love but you yourself pushed away the love you had

Cause love cannot leave that easy from one’s heart

Love never leave someone behind in pain and uncertainty

Love never be wordless and dark

If you really don’t love me, just tell me gently

So then I’ll leave everything behind, every words, every moments and every promises

But you have to know that I won’t ever be at the same place and see you again

Or hear your story, your anxiety, your dreams, and words of you

It won’t be the same anymore

You have to understand that, cause I’ll hurt everytime I see you

If you ever love me back then, just explain to me now

That you want to leave now cause you do not love me anymore

But if you do love me like it was, it is and it will, just tell me a words

And don’t hurt me by come after your rebound for this time being

Cause my wounds hasn’t been dry for now

If you do love me, just tell me it is

And I’ll wait for you cause my faith never be shaken easily

I can never take my eyes easily from the love one

I’ll never ask you for anything instead of to see only me!

But if you don’t, never ask me to come after you

Ever again

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